I don't know why I'm here , and why I'm writing almost every day these last days !!!
My talking has been all the same ! all about the way I'm living and the tedium I feel !! even my company in reality has been so nasty ! all I'm talking about now :
I feel bored
I can't stand it
What a life !
What a situation
I hate people
I hate myself
I hate the way I'm in now :(
If I have lived in other place , maybe under different circumstances .. I would be different !
I'm sure I would
But I don't like fantastic dreams , dreams that will NEVER come true ..
Believe me I try, I try to find a spark of hope …a spot of life … I might spend my whole life looking for this mirage !
--------I have experienced too many things the last period .. it shows me how I am still a teen , who has never know what the real life really is !
The way I behave , is how I behave everywhere ,and nearly with every person ,of course depends who he/she is … I don't know .. it's me and I can't be anyone but me
Maybe I'm wrong , and the PERFECT STATE I want my world to be is impossible to realize
All I have to do is to be patient .. and Life is gonna show me what's the secret all about