Sunday, December 28, 2008

Violet Is Sad

It was really bad day today!!! We had 3 exams !!! OMG. I was studying too hard last night even since Friday .. I was sure that I'll do fine with them but soon it was proven contrarily.. You have no idea how I feel depressed now .. even in one of them I was asked to do the refractive index experiment .. can you believe I forgot how to do it !!! after having a sufficient shock in the first exam I forgot even what time is was or where I have been !!! indeed very bad !!!!

Even with the computers' exam; I didn't know what had happened to me !!! this is the  last thing I care about..  coz I really    love computers .. anyway the college today was empty .. just the workers and us !!! and it was really dull  .. I stopped thinking for a second and I started to find 

a way to put an end to this mess , but soon I realized that there is no solution .. time is passing and it doesn't wait anybody… no matter who is he.. after returning home .. I started crying..  I really felt helpless .. my family tried to encourage me … all of them actually .. but my father said " my daughter, dear.. please forget what has happened and let what occurred today behind your back.. this is not the end of life!!, with your achievements  .. you must say that to people and not to been said!!.. to forget every bad thing, and start from the beginning no matter how bad the past was … " anyway I felt a little relieved after hearing that and tiny spots of hope returned again to my uneasy face ..

Sorry guys this post caused a big depression to you .. but if I can't say what I feel on my blog .. where the sky can I say it ..

BTW, a big explosion has just happened .. It shocked me !!! indeed it's unbearable day !! right?