I love you , don't leave !

Masha'a allah days pass so fast! It's like yesterday since the summer vacation began ! 27-9 I must be ready to go to college again !
I don't have any clue if I 'm exiting to attend college or not ! but any way it's better than this situation .
THEY packed my sister's luggage today , she is preparing to move to her husband's family's house , frankly speaking … I didn't give any participation in this bcoz I'm sure that would breake my heart ! I can't explain it , she is like my soulmate, my brain twin ! she is designed how I've been designed . I don't deny I differ from her so much , but I'm like her … and the first one I put In the foregroundTo take advice IS HER , coz I trust her.. and trust what she thinks .

I' afraid that she will leave us , leave me ! I'm afraid even to think about it !
Who I'm going to ask if I get into trouble ???although if I get into troubles I seldom ask someone's help ; I prefer mange them by myself , but having her beside me ,, feeling her she would be with me any time .. every time I want her to be is a great feeling , it's like having a gentle hand will never ..ever let you fall on the ground! Never let you down … so to whom I will talk ?? I know I'm used to talk to myself in my problems … with whom I will laugh ?? with whom I will cook ??who is going to tell me right from wrong ?! I trust I have mom ,dad and a little sister and a brother .. but she is different … she is another case !!

I think with myself sometimes how life without her would be ?
I escape asking her or talking to her about this stuff ,,and if I talk to her about it I make myself never mind or don't know what are the consequences … I know she understand me .. and read my thoughts and she also afraid of talking about it …
Will I still silent till I lose her ??!
I think other times how we grew together these yesteryears , how we spent the hard times of siege together .. having fun and living with peace .. I remember how we played with our dolls ,, how we scrabbled together.. how we use to love each other ….
Silent .. I decide to stop right here !by this song :

You make me feel funny
When you come around
Yeah that's what I found out honey
What am I doing without you
You make me feel happy
When I leave you behind
It plays on my mind now honey
What am I doing without you


Took for granted everything we had
As if I'd find someone
Who's just like you

We got a little world of our own
I'll tell you things that no one else knows
I let you in where no-one else goes
What am I doing without you
And all of the things I've been looking for
Have always been here outside of my door
And all of the time I'm looking for something new
What am I doing without you

Well I guess I'm ready
For settling down
And fooling around is over
And I swear that it's true
No buts or maybes
When I'm falling down
There's always someone who saves me
And girl it's you

Funny how life can be so surprising
I'm just realizing what you do

We got a little world of our own
I'll tell you things that no one else knows
I let you in where no-one else goes
What am I doing without you
And all of the things I've been looking for
Have always been here outside of my door
And all of the time I'm looking for something new
What am I doing without you

Well it's feeling right now
So let's do it right now
Praying that some how
You will understand the way
It's feeling right now somehow
I won't let this slip away

We got a little world of our own
I'll tell you things that no one else knows
I let you in where no-one else goes
What am I doing without you
And all of the things I've been looking for
Have always been here outside of my door
And all of the time I'm looking for something new
What am I doing without you!!!