before dawn

Ah God , Is there magical power in this piece ?

Thanks from  the heart to the soul who has introduced it to  me hear it at the first place :) ,

your eyes!

My mood now

عيناك ليال صيفية

و رؤى و قصائد ورديه

من أنت؟ زرعت بنقر

خطاك الدرب ورودا جورية

من أنت؟

كالضوء مررت كحقل العطر

كعزف أغان شعبية

و مضيت شراعا يحملني

كقصيدة شمس بحرية

لوعود راحت ترسمها

أحلام فتاة شرقية

من أنت؟

من أنت و سحر في عينيك

يزف العمر لأمنية

لكأنك من قمر تأتي

من نجمة صبح ذهبية

من ارض فيها شمس الحب

تعانق وجه الحرية

وأنا في العمر مسافرة

و معي عيناك و أغنية

Beyond the sea

While i was waiting the Fajir prayer , i piked up the remote control and randomly it was fox movies !

yes, I  was attracted by the theme of the movie that was being showed , I love the singing movies like Moulin rouge  by Ewan McGregor and Nicole Kidman ...

So the film was "Beyond the sea", the title of the song which I adore by Bob Darin , and the movie is the story of his life  

I wish , I could live during that period of time (1940-1960), some thing deep inside me keeps telling me I'm form that era

Here is scenes of the movie with the song , 

Here is the song by Bob

Bob Darin

Magic bean

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QUgzBGW-zAU

I love this song very very much, I even watch Bab Alhara just to see it on mbc, By it i remember all the childhood story of magic bean,which i used to read many many times when i was less than 6 years old... 

the song is about Eid and How you can give a reason to someone to feel happy in Eid, even if that some one was an ogre! when the childs give him the invitation card , there is some thing inside me prevent me to breathe..

it's like when you hear some thing makes you so happy and I bet all of you have experienced this feeling :)

well , Zain for communication has made this one 

Mama said , it's majda who sings ... but i said "mama, c'est un impssible!,Majda has higher sharper voice :)"

now you can down load the music itself CLICK HERE

That feeling again

Everything is getting so boring !


And everything is the same !

I feel my soul has been left somewhere, and I'm just tempting to put together what I have left of it…!

It's just the "lost" feeling again, and I'm struggling  to get out of it!

All my life; the things used to happen to me so fast ! easy come and hard to go !

aldoscence … I have just experienced it through these last two years … all those 17 years were faked aldoscence !

and now I feel I'm a complete woman … with brain , soul, heart ….

I can make a decision, and be responsible to it … I no longer get angry for silly things … I use my feeling  by a better way ….

This is all for now … and I can't help waiting to be an aunt !

and this is for you ....

Never matters

It never matters any more ~!

The Phantom Of the Opera

I'm living right there !~!

One the way to College!

Every time I come here , it is a sign I have learned something!
Life amazes me again and again and again !
On The way we go to college , we listen to many songs almost all of them are very old and take me back to my childhood, we keep laughing and laughing !
Or I just keep my privacy and have a book to read ,sitting on the heading chair in the car ,  and bear  the driver's stories injected Obligatorily  into my ears !
Every time I listen to him , I see him as my little brother and not as my older one … I keep give him social advises how to deal with his fiancée , I see him as a child and always need help! He is very nice guy…
My college goes well these days , I love it and I love every thing in it in spite of the ugliness of these days !
I won't speak about checkpoints , broken roads , bumbs ! my heart has had enough of this !
And I won't speak this time about patients and hospitals , I've been tired a little bit!
It's only me and how my"MIND" has been grown up! I'm very happy with that !i see the things from different directions, I see beauty in every thing I see …
And I never get angry rapidly ! and this amazes me again in comparison with the hard tough days I've got through at the beginning of this year !
It's all Strauss , Mozart and some sweet guitar playing !
People , for a moment I  love life !
Prayers !

~MY~Life For Rent

Violet:I LOVE this song but i'm singing it now with bitterness! 

I haven't really ever found a place that I call home 
I never stick around quite long enough to make it 
I apologize that once again I'm not in love 
But it's not as if I mind 
that your heart ain't exactly breaking 

It's just a thought, only a thought 

But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy 
Well I deserve nothing more than I get 
Cos nothing I have is truly mine 

I've always thought 
that I would love to live by the sea 
To travel the world alone 
and live my life more simply 
I have no idea what's happened to that dream 
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me 

It's just a thought, only a thought 

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy 
Well I deserve nothing more than I get 
Cos nothing I have is truly mine 

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down 
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try 
Well how can I say I'm alive 

If my life is for rent... 

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wandering here and there at home... leaving this room... entering that one...escaping form heat and the heat followng me... the informations don't stick in my head as i haven't studied the lectures before... 

no thing i can do but PATIENCE!

and "nothing i have truly mine!"

Pray for me please!

Mamy it's over !

"peace be with you " the phrase which  fascinated me while I was watching "kingdom of heaven", for the second time .. my favorite movie actually . I watch it with all means . Saladin(Ghasan Masoud, the Syrian  actor) was an amazing personality I wish there is a man like him these days , a man who  really believes  in peace. The peace treaties which he used to make with the king of France in this movie  just make me think that  there were real  men at that time !!

The two were really sign of peace and what makes me proud that he is IRAQI ; what bothers me in this movie that I heard a phrase says " their prophet (our prophet Mohammed ) Allah's prayers  and blessings  be on him.. used to say to Muslims : obey!! " no Islam is not like this .. there is no verse in Quran says obey to what we don't understand .. and not we fully believe.. every person in Islam's point of view has the right to choose his religion and his way of life.. and Mohammed didn't make any one OBEY to Islam without the one's  full agreement and full mental power! Any way, I think this movie is one of few movies which show the real face of Islam. Saladin ; when he entered Jerusalem  (Al-Quds) he saw a cross layed on the ground , he held it and put it on a table (BTW, this is a fact and really had happened), I think people like him can make the KINGDOM OF HEAVEN in spite of the savage  weapons but at least they didn't use pernicious   tools of wars like nuclear weapons and chemical weapons . I see those weapons of coward men ! the men who have no courage to face their enemies…

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They  were the relatives' days those two last days .. we went out to visit relatives to do some (family stuff). I got bored really bored , any street we go to is blocked every branch we want to pass through is closed ! it's like you are in prison … but what made  me laugh that if you drive in a hurry you are gonna be blamed by the soldiers in the checkpoints and if you drive slowly you are also goona be blamed by the same soldiers who are gonna  say to you " Are you walking on eggs ?? ( public expression ) .. hurry up !" hhh. Any way we arrived on my Jida's house (my grandmother's house) after an hour and a half  wandering in the Closed streets . the problem was they were smoking ALL the men there except my dad :D .. and that made my headache greatly increase .. I continued coughing since the first minute till the last one there .. my cousin ( Adbl Rahmaan ).. he is about 4 months old was crying , so my innocence and humanity  called  me :D .. I tried to make his father who is my uncle take a breath , so I was thinking of giving hand,hhh .. it's my pleasure actually :).. I love kids !!! but while Abdl Rahmaan was sitting on my legs .. he DID NOT stop looking at me !! as I'm his mother , can you believe ?? I didn't believe myself actually !people, I'm only 18 and SOME months years old ,hhh. Maybe my face made him feel like he is home ( in his mother's arms ) who knows?!..

I played with my sister (little one actually) today and that made my dad laugh at me and he said " Violet , you behave INNOCENTLY sometimes like kids " , he calls me "philosopher" though !!!

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I finished my exams  ( there are others after holiday :D) .. I believe I did my best and tried to put my full power in it. Hopefully I'll make my family and me proud, and I always try to make anyone loves me proud of me .

To be honest I'm very sick . I have frontal sinuses ( it's due to an allergy  against chemical materials ) that makes  me be in a very annoying headache ! even I decided to go to a doctor the soon I can .

To spend more time with family  is my current aim . I usually watch TV with my little sister .. in fact I'm addicted to a cartoon called " shaun the sheep " I REALLY love it ..yesterday I watched another cartoon of Mr. bean ,it's my other favorite one :).

I don't know ,but something reminded me of Kadhim Al-saher's OLD songs ( which I greatly like more than his current ones ) I searched what I've got of his songs on my laptop and listened to them .. even I asked my dad if we have a CD of Abdl Haleem or Um kalthum .. hhhh.

That's enough guys for this time , stay safe till the next time I can be here:):) .

Kind wishes :)

 

 

The Best Damn Thing

Avril Lavigne has a song that called "the best damn thing", from her last said sentence  album.  You know what? We all need  a best damn thing some times, if we want to do it and if we don't!! human being when he loses  hope and finds no way to express himself he goes mad , so mad .. and he becomes  ready to do anything in order to say what he wants even that may be the last thing he does.

There are a lot of " best damn thing"s in our life, first… the  wars and other genocides that may be done in order to have peace, or to stop another war ; a bigger and more dangerous war. It is a WRY thing actually. How can a war stop killing people??!! , how can  a war make a place of earth better???!!! How can a war arise the economical situation of a country??!!! , anyway! We don't know  the answer of these questions actually.. these are uncontrolled things and they happen from the ever.

Greece  ; the ancient Greece .. as we know it's the first place on earth that had acknowledged democracy . as(( the  people rule of people  for the sake of people)) ,from the latter statement we see that people have the control and any one can say and do anything he wants because democracy can support him with that, but what we had there that the villeins and the slaves did not have the right to show what they want for public ; cuz they were not allowed to do this!! And then in that regime ; for example ..if a woman from the nobles had done a crime  ..was not punished or judged as anyone … one of her slaves should have had the punishment.. imagine!!.. this happened and happens so much in every where .. the poor and the weak had and has no right to speak or say anything.. the strong has the ability to do what he desires and whenever and however he wants to do it.

We say that there are rules that control the planet ,and everyone should have his rights… so let's focus a little bit here, imagine there are two people waiting at the borders of a country or at airport .. the first is well dressed and high level educated or looks like he has a lot of money.. and the second is the bad dressed and looks like poor.. the two has problems with the government that they are going to enter or  someone shouted "there is a thief here"   .. the security there ; with whom  they will deal  by a better way, the poor or the rich and powerful!!??  And who will be accused of the theft  ??!! the normal answer will be  the poor looking man , it's a priori thing of human nature.. the poor from the ever has no rights .. and the weak has no power to speak ; it's the nature of the  life .

And let me give you another example; there are two pupils in a school. One of them is from high educated and well-being family, and the other from a poor and non- educated family. One of the pupils there told the teacher that there is one who has stolen his  bag. The teacher made investigations ..who will she accuse first  of your opinion?? (even if the rich lad was the thief).. unfortunately that is the truth .

No rights for poor people.. that exactly what was happening in middle ages . the kings and the nobles had every thing .. and they used to attack and get everything they want from the villagers and peasants.. it's the rule of the strong .. even it exists in the animal and planet kingdom .. the lion can prey the other animals and the weak hyena arrives at the end and eats what the loin has left!.. it's how the world is going .. nothing can be changed  …

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After talking for a long time  I want to say a temporary Good-bye to you , cuz I will be unable to post for a while .. I will have examinations so soon .. so wish me good luck :)

 

Beethoven

Before several days I was very sick with flu (except that flu which I have mentioned in my last post) , it was from very bad type – in Intestines, I spent that Thursday just being  in bed and taking medicines.. I was really in very bad condition …

After being in college for nearly a month , I have begun to get used to it . in spite of hating  to chemistry class. I used to like chemistry  in school ,but not at the level of physics I really loved and still love physics. Even in my private class last year the teacher of physics was very good man and that what had made me love physics more and more.

Do you believe it?! Someday he was asking a question no one at that time could answer it except me , hahaha , I answered it with a high spirit and said the answer with a high trust in self . he said to me " very good Violet, you will be someone special in the future", I became  very proud of myself at that time; firstly because he doesn't say such thing but rarely and secondly because it was really a smart question. My cheeks became really really really RED . even he noticed that on my face hahaha

In college I'm doing well I thank Allah , but I'm really confused and feeling so lost .. but if you want the truth I want to be so special and make myself proud of my self .

That doesn't mean I don't like or envy the smart students with me but my nature is to be special all my life. Even I started to make friends here. Some of girls here are very nice. Some of them from other cities  , it's a great thing to meet new people , right?.

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Since I'm very busy with my studies I 'm not listening  to my favorite music since a long time. I really miss the symphonies of Beethoven . I'm very fascinated with this man's mind. He was a deaf but he was at the same time the greatest musician at that time and till now , his symphonies drift  me   and  transfer me to another world. Especially the 9^th and the 7^th symphony, and please if  anyone know a web site where  downloads of  his symphonies are available  ; let me know it.

It has been a long time since the last time I watched  T.V. ; and  It has been more than a month since I watched my favorite T.V show "Prison Break "…. I miss it!!!

It was a great pleasure to me to write this post and get back to blogging ... so finally  please accept my regards ,

Miss Violet. 

Innocence

Many  days ago I  heard a very nice song  ... it's Avril Lavigne's song called" Innocence" .. i liked it and i think you will like it too..

Here are its lyrics :

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry

This innocence is brilliant, it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliance, please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by