Birthday :)

To celebrate my birthday with my sister means a lot to me , and to spend it with my nephew means more  !

Every time I remember I have been an aunt , I feel responsible …
I feel I have grown up , and always think about the consequences of everything I do !
Despite being my birthday's  anniversary , I worked .. washed almost all the house preparing for Eid , From the early morning till after noon , I went to bed and then surprised by a yummy cake of mama :)
 This is all for today , I don't have a photo of the cake , forgive me :D

Chao :)

Forbidden Boys

When I first entered college , I was too shy !

Or as a matter of fact , I thought boys are dangerous thing , so they isolate us from them for about 10 years , hoping that when we and them get into college , each of us are adults enough  by then !

I supposed  this , any way!

During  high school , and when I go to market or something , and it happens if I see a boy , I get so confused and my face blushes , and this continued for about 1 month of the college !

And then I was introduced to persons that break my shyness down , I always say if I'm a shy I wouldn't change !

Okay , all right !

They use to say to me I'm a leader personality !  but i always need a push , but I don't agree with them

I always adore peace and calmness and hates people gossip and chet chat !

At the same time I have the ability to listen and to be a friend to the most difficult personality in the world , it won't be more complicated than me any way … at least as I think !

okay , let's return to what I was saying..

I got involved in many activities in college , and I got over my shyness problem , but I faced another problem as a result !

The 10 years of isolation between boys and girls , as much as it's useful and wise as much as it is unfair !

How can a boy doesn't speak to a girl for 10 years , gets used to the presence of her might sit next to him at the chair in a lecture ! he is human being at the end!

All right , my personality is always encouraging …

I encourage every person that I think he/ she has talent in any thing !!

But this is not normal thing for a girl , here !

There is a rule … you encourage >>>> you care !

How stupid that rule is ?!!?

Me, myself love writing so much, in Arabic or in English , and I wrote for the first time at the first year of college !

And for this I considered not a normal , girl !

If you are beautiful , clever , has other interests other than medicine , you are not normal !

So be ready to have harasses , get envied and hear gossips for things deserve and other and are the most NOT!!

I won't tell what those people said about me , they are all ignorant and don't deserve my attention , at least this is what I try to persuade myself in !

Now

-I don't dare to ask a male-colleague how is he … this  will  be understood BY ANOTHER WAY!

-I don't dare to write publicly , this  will  be understood BY ANOTHER WAY!

-I don't dare to have public discussion , this  will  be understood BY ANOTHER WAY!

When I still had a face book account which I hate the most , there was a male- friend , whom I respect very much , he is open minded and older  than me , I didn't dare to congratulate him for his birthday_ in spite knowing when is it by my events in that damned face book_by sending something on his wall , coz this will be explained by another way  by my friends or by his ! and I didn’t dare to congratulate him by a private message coz I fear the word private by itself and till know I blame myself for not wishing him a happy birthday !

For a reason of my raising up environment and my family's way in education , I wasn't shocked by dealing with boys , at the contrast, I feel so happy when I discuss worthy things with boys more than girls , and i don't know the reason behind that !...  and by a reason of having an angelic brother , I thought all the boys are angels like him!this fact is not true , with sorrow

I talk too much now a days , don’t get used to it , I'm so moody as you know , but this may be continued !

And before i forget , special thanks to all my readers form Istanbul , and of course all around the world .

Berserk ocean

Help please !
Am heading to be crazy ??!
Everyone is getting away from me , far away from me ….
No one is near, all are in the distance ~
No one to talk to ,
I feel nobody is close enough to understand ! I'm in a very tough emotional crisis.
New life , the first time in my life I feel responsibility! With no one near to even hear me!
My sister , her marriage next week, this means all those years will go with the wind , just will DISAPPEAR!
In this month long, my family leave to Beirut! Another responsibility !
My brother busy with his work , starting to  think about his own life.
My little sister has began  her new year in school .

I'm like a broken boat in middle of a Berserk ocean ! 

 

My friend is busy with her 2nd attempt exams! Other one hasn't got used to life here yet !
College is so boring and hard ,.. I feel it has no taste … I can't smell the breeze I used to smell , I can't see faces I need to see !
………….. silence !

I love you , don't leave !

Masha'a allah days pass so fast! It's like yesterday since the summer vacation began ! 27-9 I must be ready to go to college again !
I don't have any clue if I 'm exiting to attend college or not ! but any way it's better than this situation .
THEY packed my sister's luggage today , she is preparing to move to her husband's family's house , frankly speaking … I didn't give any participation in this bcoz I'm sure that would breake my heart ! I can't explain it , she is like my soulmate, my brain twin ! she is designed how I've been designed . I don't deny I differ from her so much , but I'm like her … and the first one I put In the foregroundTo take advice IS HER , coz I trust her.. and trust what she thinks .

I' afraid that she will leave us , leave me ! I'm afraid even to think about it !
Who I'm going to ask if I get into trouble ???although if I get into troubles I seldom ask someone's help ; I prefer mange them by myself , but having her beside me ,, feeling her she would be with me any time .. every time I want her to be is a great feeling , it's like having a gentle hand will never ..ever let you fall on the ground! Never let you down … so to whom I will talk ?? I know I'm used to talk to myself in my problems … with whom I will laugh ?? with whom I will cook ??who is going to tell me right from wrong ?! I trust I have mom ,dad and a little sister and a brother .. but she is different … she is another case !!

I think with myself sometimes how life without her would be ?
I escape asking her or talking to her about this stuff ,,and if I talk to her about it I make myself never mind or don't know what are the consequences … I know she understand me .. and read my thoughts and she also afraid of talking about it …
Will I still silent till I lose her ??!
I think other times how we grew together these yesteryears , how we spent the hard times of siege together .. having fun and living with peace .. I remember how we played with our dolls ,, how we scrabbled together.. how we use to love each other ….
Silent .. I decide to stop right here !by this song :

You make me feel funny
When you come around
Yeah that's what I found out honey
What am I doing without you
You make me feel happy
When I leave you behind
It plays on my mind now honey
What am I doing without you


Took for granted everything we had
As if I'd find someone
Who's just like you

We got a little world of our own
I'll tell you things that no one else knows
I let you in where no-one else goes
What am I doing without you
And all of the things I've been looking for
Have always been here outside of my door
And all of the time I'm looking for something new
What am I doing without you

Well I guess I'm ready
For settling down
And fooling around is over
And I swear that it's true
No buts or maybes
When I'm falling down
There's always someone who saves me
And girl it's you

Funny how life can be so surprising
I'm just realizing what you do

We got a little world of our own
I'll tell you things that no one else knows
I let you in where no-one else goes
What am I doing without you
And all of the things I've been looking for
Have always been here outside of my door
And all of the time I'm looking for something new
What am I doing without you

Well it's feeling right now
So let's do it right now
Praying that some how
You will understand the way
It's feeling right now somehow
I won't let this slip away

We got a little world of our own
I'll tell you things that no one else knows
I let you in where no-one else goes
What am I doing without you
And all of the things I've been looking for
Have always been here outside of my door
And all of the time I'm looking for something new
What am I doing without you!!!

Uniforming my life

I think sometimes to be a philosopher and to start talking like a dork or something :D , but at the last second I see it's so nasty to write your diaries by this way !

Today mama bought me a Gray skirt and a white jacket for college, they impose the uniform this year and I have to wear the same color every day and especially colors : Gray , dark blue which are the colors of the uniform, mama supports the idea that it's better to have a good thing to wear all the year than thinking of what to wear the next day every day !in her view it's waste of time , she said when she was a student she had to wear uniform too, and even after graduation .. she had to wear it at her office ( Computer Center , Mosul University ), when the computer was a fantastic thing that only programmers know how to ride it :P

I don't like the idea depends on the latter reason I have mentioned above , coz I HATE routine :D.

I read these days " geniality of Mohammed " , of Abaas Mahmoud al3kad , it's a worthy book to read !

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The back yard now is clean without the dirties of my little sister's rabbits , she wanted them very bad at the beginning but she is geek in something called " Hygiene " :D , so when she saw and realized they are living creatures , she changed her mind and tried to make herself forget to feed them every day , so we had to feed them .finally Baba decided to move them to other place … hhhh.

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I feel so lazy to cook these days , I feel I'm exhausted, EMPTY of the will to do anything , as the result mama moralized me with wigging to EAT , " you are now half of yourself " :D , she said . Baba whenever I see him he start saying " look at you , what happened , eat !! ". I asked My big sister today to find a way to stop losing my hair , and she also scolded me !!! " you are not eating enough " . Ah God!

Now I even don't have the mood I used to have , the patinence I had and the affability.. believing the phrase saying : who satisfies , satisfies .and who doesn't , let him bunt his head to the wall ". is it not okay to feel like this ?

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BTW, i want you to start guessing what is this :D

Yeah , I " was " full of Energy !

full of energy state is so difficult to achieve here in Iraq, But I felt it today and by the way I'm not feeling it now ! :)) ..
I want to practise painting , to read books ,, to read Quran ,, To write poetry ,, more and more :))
I went with mama to my nana's house for look after her , coz she is an old woman and she needs support :(
OMG! I didn't tell you .. I was forced to wake up at 7 am !!!
Barley opening my eyes I changed my clothes saying to myself it's all ajer :))
Okay until 9 am we left nana's house then I went with mama to her office , she has took a permission to get out for 3 hours ,, I immediately placed myself in front of PC(at her office) after 2 days of not attending internet :(
Suddenly baba arrived to the office and told mama that he has come to take me to buy books I have already told him to buy for me :)
Okay I bought ,, 2 books of Ahmad Shaouqi .. 1 book of 3ntra(poetry books) .. 3 Islamic books and one more I can't remember :P !!
Then after we have got home I read Quran and then immediately went to bed , slept for 3 hours , hhhh!!
I'm used to watch a show called " صدق وعده" during the eon of beginning of Islam .. it's so awesome and I never get bored of watching shows talking about the Islamic Regime led by The Prophet Mohammed (Allah blessings and prayers be upon him ).
I directed myself to the kitchen to help mama and my big sis, laughing here.. screaming there and it passed :))
At 6:45 it was Futor ,,,
And I'm not going to say more.. I feel sleepy ..
Good bye :)

and yeah before i left , i draw this tonight and it took 1\4 an hour , i know she NEVER looks like her:))

By the way this is for muslims to complete reading Quran in Ramadhan :

1- إقسم عدد صفحات المصحف على عدد الأيام المتبقية من شهر رمضان ( مثلا : 604 صفحة تقسيم 29 يوم = حوالي 21 صفحة في اليوم ) .

2- إقسم الرقم الناتج على 5 صلوات في اليوم ( مثلا : 21 صفحة باليوم تقسيم 5 مرات = حوالي 4,2 صفحة تقرأ قبل أو بعد كل صلاة مفروضة ) .

3- لتبسيط الأمر في هذا المثال ، إذا قرأت 5 صفحات من المصحف قبل أو بعد كل صلاة مفروضة فإنك ستتمكن من ختم المصحف في أقل من 25 يوم !

Mixed Feeling after along while

hhhhhh,

I'm about to suicide !

Nothing is worthy and nothing pleases me ! NOTHING !

I feel I'm prisoned if I stay at home for few hours ,, actually I feel prisoned in this city or in  this country … or on  this spot of land !

I don't know but can't express my feeling about this ,,

Last Friday it was my sister's Nishan(it's one of the wedding  steps here in Iraq),, It was so cooool and in the best place all over Mosul we had managed the party!

I'm so happy for her and I'm so sad at the same time and ofcourse you know why ?LOL!

  

I think just before a week we've been in Duhok , it was a nice trip not to the summer resorts but to the down town(i think It's called howler)  ,, the hotels were all full and we barely found a motel to sleep in !

I wished we went to Erbil coz I LOVE it and I feel  it's like I'm in Baghdad which I have never seen it yet,, leaving you with some photos :

One of the bridges there , holding the election Portraits

 

taken form the back window of the hotel 

Shandoukha resturant 

On the road back to Mosul 

Hint: I'm the last one  who might think to  suicide  ,, At least I don't think to die until I achieve the purpose behind my being on earth.

More over suicide  is forbidden in Islam ! 

Pray for me ;),,, BYE! 

 

what for?

Have you asked your self for a once why we do exams ??? are they for making us distressed or dipressed? or just to test our calmness and control of our selves ' or they are for testing our knowledge ???? 

any way, my day was too long starting with not attending the physics lab and instead going to Anatomy lab  for doing review for MY BIG ANATOMY PRACTICAL EXAM ( doesn't this phrase remind you of some movie?:D) i kept there all the day 3ani ( it means) from 8:00 Am to 10:00 went then to cafetria for EATING!!! and having SOME REST NOT TOO MUCH! okay , then return to  that damned lab!!! and continued there without attending the chemistry lecture... It's tough exam believe me!!! we have studied  three parts of the body - till now- : Upper , Lower extremity   and Thorax... my God help me!!!  , all i want is to obtain 5/10 not more than this; please !!!! :

then went at 1:00 PM to do the chemistry practical exam !! to return home at 2:50 PM!

oh i forgot to tell you about mom an d dad! there are home now !!! and i wont tell you how was my feeling when i saw mom coz it can't be explained!!!! 

PLZ, PLZ ,PLZ PRAY FOR ME! 

returning to the very beginning

After seeing not that huge echo i expected for my last post .. I decided to be what I used to be; an unknown as I'm always ... as you try to know who am  I you get deeper and deeper and won't know where is the begging >>> the college is all right ... we are doing(I'm doing) fine... tomorrow we have an exam and unfortunately i won't be able to attend my dear sister graduation ... I'm very sad for that :(.. dad and mom are planning to go to macca for doing emra(عمرة) the visit to the holy house of allah except haj... and they are waiting till the final note for  travel .. so i hope tomorrow they will be able to attend her party...

the poetry to me is a matter of self explaining  and I think I'm going to write a poem now .. I don't know what its title or its contents   .. 

okay i don't have much to say.. so plz pray for me 

Out of the coverage area

I woke up today with miserable situation, the sinuses ( the allergy ) again and the same annoying headache.. several days ago I have seen dr. OZ on MBC 4 channel showing a method to treat sinuses. It was disgusting way, indeed but he said it works!  I'm not thinking of doing it anyway :D. I was not realizing where am I really !this morning , it's like there is someone was pushing firmly on the both sides of my head! My sister after seeing my terrible state gave me a capsule ! it's the blue-white capsule which I HATE !!! then I returned to the bed again and never woke up till 2 pm ! 
A couple of days ago , the morning also was horrible but with other way .. as always I don't wake up early , not for a reason believe me ! it's because of my room :D . I don't know when the morning begins in it!! it's so dark … no hope ! its position is against the sun … I'm not going to dwell ;I'll tell the story : I was awokened  by the voice of my little sister saying :" mama, mama, mama.." yes , she repeated that many times and her voice was trembling with fear. I then heard " mama, mama .. the soldiers are knocking our door !! " , mama was upstairs – I don't know what she was doing till now - .. (M)'s fear was reasonless , I don't know why she was crying like this ! the last time they searched our house .. they were friendly ! anyway my heart's beats accelerate also I don't know why either ! maybe it's the way I was awokened  by ! directly I wore my Hijab , hide  my mobile and laptop – earlier they had worn people to hide any mobile before any searching process- and then running so fast down stairs – I don't know If I descended the stairs step by step or simply jumped 14 steps at the same time !
 it wasn't searching anyway , hhhhhhhhh 
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I have been out of the coverage area at the present time , don't know why ! it's like I'm on earth out of it ! I have no idea what's going out there in the world ! my life has been just A VERY ANNOYING ROUTINE!
I was thinking of closing my other blog but for the sake of a very dear friend to me – cheers to you my friend! :D –and for the sake of the comments there ;  I decided not to close it! Anyway it's just an  avocation  and my mood is not helping me to write anything  nowadays .. 

Speak and I will attentively listen :D

Today, was silly. with all this word may mean. the same annoying routine, I wish I can go to the college. I miss the study, my friends, the cafeteria that I visit every morning to drink some tea and eat biscuits with my friends!

I miss the road that every day we use it to go to college although it's full of check points, soldiers and police , I miss the professors, The college itself , even I miss the FPS standing in front of its gate  protecting it ! :D

when I feel depressed I wish I can find a place where no one can see me upset. I wish I can run far far away for not making my dear people get worried about me. that's why I don't talk to my friends recently coz when I feel that I'm bored I become sooo annoying girl :D . but if one of them calls me I will certainly, absolutely listen to them attentively and give them the appropriate advice:)
my finger is still pink or violet . I sometimes when I eat jam I eat it with the same index-finger in order to recycle my nationality and not to make it vaporize :D . that makes my mom laugh at me :D:D.

any way today Nana came to our house  , I listen to what she says always in order to have advantages from her interesting stories and advices :D. I see her like a self-made great woman who never lets the hard world get over her or defeat her insistence to live. 

tomorrow I'll study seriously and try to improve my English .. don't tell me, I know it's full of (that ) :D :D and I will read Koran Inshallah .
I have a problem, would you please help me, there is a contact appears online to me and I have NEVER added him/her. I even don't know who is he/she ??!!! 

Stay safe:)

The blind Mona Lisa

Have you ever imagine or ask yourself why Mona Lisa never stops smiling?! 
She smiles to everybody; never cares if the person before her good or bad. all she knows is following people and give them her charming smile ;whether they want to or not.
She is like a blind woman lives in heaven and thinks everybody with her in that heaven, never has any idea that among the people who pass through her; there are sad, poor, desperate ,hopeless, smile-less or even evil people!.
I don't know, but I see I'm like the Mona Lisa in some way or another ! it's like I live in imaginary world where there is no one lies on his friend , no one treats his brother , just love and peace . and don't want and body to get me out of it, in fact I forget the world is full of bad things and continue what I believe about my imaginary world as I'm crazy or something!
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Yesterday, was kind of interesting day to me, it was my first participation in elections. Curfew was imposed and we had to walk to the election center. It was complicated journey actually, but I saw the gang of my cat's(Lulu's) husband - I would never let her have a boyfriend :D- wandering in the streets, maybe he voted :D . everyone has the right to vote right?
I hope things are going to change for better here and everywhere in Iraq, it's time to live decently.
Today is my father's birthday , we visited our relatives for doing the same former "family stuff" and then went to buy him a gift. He telephoned us coz he got worried and we had to lie on him and said the roads are blocked :D –we wanted to make it a surprise – anyway we didn't lie, did we?:D  

Plan B

OMG!!!

Is this prescription normal , or something has been put in it ! I feel SOO good , I can't feel that contious annoying headache again !!!

One of these is right:

1-      The doctor is magical

2-      The prescription is magical

3-      I'm magical :D

 

After visiting the doctor , it appeared that I don't have sinuses.. I have Congestions ; he wrote me a prescription and the result was instant .. And I appreciate any message sent to me asking how am I doing , thanks friends  !!!  I would like to tell anybody cares about me  , I'm fine now  Alhamed lilah ( Thanks to Allah)

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I was the chief today, my mom left the responsibility of the cooking to me . beside looking after my little sister. I woke up at 10:00 AM( I had enough during exams, I used to get up at 06:00 AM), to be honest I didn't wake up spontaneously .. my little sister ( I'll call her M) woke me , after feeling bored and wanting someone to play with !!!). okay , okay .. I woke up! Got downstairs to have breakfast , with listening to  the songs of Fayrouz .. it's worthy !.

At 12:00 PM ,I  decided to start cooking before my family gets home , M suggested to make the soup ( she is only 9 years old , like her sister she is |CHIEF| hhh. Okay these what I cooked  today:

1-      Cow's liver  : this can be cooked with garlic and some spices ( it's fried). I don't like it ( I like only its smell while being  cooked :D )

2-      Broccoli : two types :

a-      Dunked  in the whipped  egg  without  Chopping  ( it's also been cooked by frying).

b-      Chopped broccoli with whipped eggs and celery .(also fried)

This one was suggested by dad yesterday , THANK YOU GOD !!!

 he didn't suggest the  (plan B )which is FISH !!!! , I HATE it!! With all  this word may  mean .

3-      Finger chips

4-      Kuba(s): ( there is no English translation for  this word ,hhhh). It can be made by using those essential materials   : rice , chopped  meat and  spices . first the rice is cooked and then a dough been made by mixing the rice with  water ,then fried meat with salt and spices which are involved inside this dough giving the  shape of circle ( also fried). I'll let you with some photos .. I don't recommend seeing the cooker now :D… its situation is miserable! Thank God I could tie up the mess before mom came home :D   

to the right : Kuba , to the left # 2(a)

finger chips ( who doesn't know it,lol ) 

# 2(b)

no comment 

:D 

  

 

Mamy it's over !

"peace be with you " the phrase which  fascinated me while I was watching "kingdom of heaven", for the second time .. my favorite movie actually . I watch it with all means . Saladin(Ghasan Masoud, the Syrian  actor) was an amazing personality I wish there is a man like him these days , a man who  really believes  in peace. The peace treaties which he used to make with the king of France in this movie  just make me think that  there were real  men at that time !!

The two were really sign of peace and what makes me proud that he is IRAQI ; what bothers me in this movie that I heard a phrase says " their prophet (our prophet Mohammed ) Allah's prayers  and blessings  be on him.. used to say to Muslims : obey!! " no Islam is not like this .. there is no verse in Quran says obey to what we don't understand .. and not we fully believe.. every person in Islam's point of view has the right to choose his religion and his way of life.. and Mohammed didn't make any one OBEY to Islam without the one's  full agreement and full mental power! Any way, I think this movie is one of few movies which show the real face of Islam. Saladin ; when he entered Jerusalem  (Al-Quds) he saw a cross layed on the ground , he held it and put it on a table (BTW, this is a fact and really had happened), I think people like him can make the KINGDOM OF HEAVEN in spite of the savage  weapons but at least they didn't use pernicious   tools of wars like nuclear weapons and chemical weapons . I see those weapons of coward men ! the men who have no courage to face their enemies…

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They  were the relatives' days those two last days .. we went out to visit relatives to do some (family stuff). I got bored really bored , any street we go to is blocked every branch we want to pass through is closed ! it's like you are in prison … but what made  me laugh that if you drive in a hurry you are gonna be blamed by the soldiers in the checkpoints and if you drive slowly you are also goona be blamed by the same soldiers who are gonna  say to you " Are you walking on eggs ?? ( public expression ) .. hurry up !" hhh. Any way we arrived on my Jida's house (my grandmother's house) after an hour and a half  wandering in the Closed streets . the problem was they were smoking ALL the men there except my dad :D .. and that made my headache greatly increase .. I continued coughing since the first minute till the last one there .. my cousin ( Adbl Rahmaan ).. he is about 4 months old was crying , so my innocence and humanity  called  me :D .. I tried to make his father who is my uncle take a breath , so I was thinking of giving hand,hhh .. it's my pleasure actually :).. I love kids !!! but while Abdl Rahmaan was sitting on my legs .. he DID NOT stop looking at me !! as I'm his mother , can you believe ?? I didn't believe myself actually !people, I'm only 18 and SOME months years old ,hhh. Maybe my face made him feel like he is home ( in his mother's arms ) who knows?!..

I played with my sister (little one actually) today and that made my dad laugh at me and he said " Violet , you behave INNOCENTLY sometimes like kids " , he calls me "philosopher" though !!!

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I finished my exams  ( there are others after holiday :D) .. I believe I did my best and tried to put my full power in it. Hopefully I'll make my family and me proud, and I always try to make anyone loves me proud of me .

To be honest I'm very sick . I have frontal sinuses ( it's due to an allergy  against chemical materials ) that makes  me be in a very annoying headache ! even I decided to go to a doctor the soon I can .

To spend more time with family  is my current aim . I usually watch TV with my little sister .. in fact I'm addicted to a cartoon called " shaun the sheep " I REALLY love it ..yesterday I watched another cartoon of Mr. bean ,it's my other favorite one :).

I don't know ,but something reminded me of Kadhim Al-saher's OLD songs ( which I greatly like more than his current ones ) I searched what I've got of his songs on my laptop and listened to them .. even I asked my dad if we have a CD of Abdl Haleem or Um kalthum .. hhhh.

That's enough guys for this time , stay safe till the next time I can be here:):) .

Kind wishes :)

 

 

Alittle change

Today was good, in fact was happy in spite of being so sick with cough and flue again , hhhh.

the day it was the family day , my sister was engaged . and I feel so happy for her :). 

Me ,these days  with some manifestations and situations :

1-low level of anemia ( which is referred to the lack of my nutrition)

2-the lack of nutrition refers to the stress and not willing in eating or doing anything :D

3-the stress is because I study and spend almost all my time in studying or in  studying :D.

4-the studying because I determined to be what I put in mind to be .

5-the one who I want to be is what I always dreamed of.

Okay there are  no more derivations , hhhhh.

I'm happy today and that's enough ! pray for me, friends that it'll not the only day I'll be happy in :D:D.

 

 

Let the IMPOSSIBLE go to the hell!

We supposed to have a bio lab today's  morning.. but our lab was full of workers.. the situation of our college is horrible , moreover the dean of Mosul Medical college has been attacked near the college and I heard that his case is now stable in the hospital.. I HOPE he will be ok soon!

I woke up today at 6:00 AM .. after sleeping for only six hours.. I was studying bio the night before because we had an exam the day after (today :D).

then I arrived with my friends at the college; and as every day morning I go to the cafeteria for  having  tea .. although I had one cup in the morning with my family . :) … there are two students decided to leave our  college and go to their home cities to complete there  .. they said good bye to us and I felt so sad that they were leaving I don't know why. May God save them and I wish they will have good luck with their life..

I don't know how the Iraqi students are going to the colleges and study and you see them with very high spirit .. in fact the people of Iraq believe in one single thing " the damn be on the impossible , and let it go the hell !! " , if another country has passed the terrible situations and wars  that  Iraq has passed ; believe it ! it  will not survive, cuz Iraqi people the most determined people in the world and the bravest ones!.. there is nothing called IMPOSSIBLE for Iraqi people !! and me is one of them if one single breath in my lungs  is  left .. I'll do what I believe and make my country , even at least  my community and family are great and make them proud of me.

I used to be nice to everybody, girls , boys, men , women , old people .. no matter who they are .. that's why they love me , hahaha, never mind I'm kidding guys!

 

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That time I heard someone of the family friends arrived from Germany.. he was talking about that great country and how are the people there. How  the human being there is highly respected . he was living in an apartment, one day workers with orange coats rang the bell and started taking photos ever where in the apartment.. he  wondered with astonishing … why??? They were from a construction company and  were ensuring that all the apartments of the  building are ok before they begin their work outside it in the street!!! While here in Iraq building falls on its habitants with one single explosion and no one cares  . another story , someday he arrived to his apartment and saw a card on his door , it contained Dutch sentences .. he asked one of his neighbors about it  and he said to him that they will cut off the water for one day so they were making  sure all the inhabitants have heard about the statement and taken  their provisions  before the cutting off. God!! Are they people and we are not?? Are they human beings and we are not??? Here the water is cut off for months in some places and nobody knows!!!!!! Here a whole family dies  because of  hungry cuz the father doesn't have work!!!!!! Why??? .. there is another story .. the hand making materials there are very very very expensive .. chocolates  made by someone there who pretends to make them by his  one hands and offer them for sell at the price of 200 €!!! While here I have heard that someone  has the water ducts of his house were blocked .. he was looking for someone fixes them .. someone says I will fix them for 25 $ and other says he will fix  them for 30 $ but the last one offered to fix them for 2 $ !!!! that one asked him if he was sure about his offer .. but the latter said "take me  to your house!!" He started working not like any worker .. he worked from 7 am to 5 pm without taking any dinner or any food .. the one who hired him asked the worker " why the sky you are working that hard although  the money you will earn very little " , the worker said with bitterness " I have a family and children  have  never been fed for 2 days !! and I really want this 2 $ for buying them food" !!! you know what??? When I heard the one who told me this story saying that sentence my tears exploded from my eyes .. and I couldn't help it!!! .. at least the one who hired him paid the poor man  50 $.. God bless him !

These are only examples and there are too many sad stories like them in this deep  injured country  !!!

 

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My exams will start at 3^rd of January .. so I will be pretty busy , hahaha. Wish me Good luck and happy new year!!!

Violet   

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BTW, this post may contain  typing mistakes cuz I wrote it   with a rush :D:D   

It's raining outside!!!

No it's sunny right now,:D … so sunny actually … but before few days it was raining hard  and I was really happy to see the rain .. I LOVE WINTER.. and I love watching the streets and the cars while it's raining:) :).. the rain is so good and it's a sign of happiness and goodness from ancient times .. so every time I see it rains , I wish it'll bring happiness and love for all IRAQ… 

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You know what ?? I'm going to change my name into Ms. Flu and not Ms. Violet… I don't know what the matter with flu this year ??? it doesn't want to leave me.. seems it loves me , hahaha..

I was thinking of calling  this year; " The year of Flu", do you agree?

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I was verrrry busy today. I had to help my mom in cooking .. we were preparing Kleicha actually .. it's the most famous sweets that MOST be prepared every Eid…I'm fasting today so  i can't wait!!  I want to eat it:D, I had too much fun making it , and we made also Pizza and Dolma .. Ohhhhh my favorite meal . it has a Turkish origin .. but here in Mosul we add our special touch!!! I REALLY love it.. so do you , right??

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I haven't been in college since Tuesday.. I'm having a little rest before EID hahaha, I have too many studies to do but I don't have the mood to do 'em cuz I had enough those last days..

So I decided to do something useful.. cuz the only thing I hate is LAZINESS.. I  was determined to clean the garden I; I like garden work especially when I do it with my mom :):).. I cleaned it myself cuz I was home alone.. just like the movie "Home Alone".. it's cool movie , isn't it?.. anyway I didn't take so much time I cleaned  it with all means , hahaha.. so when my dear mom returned home I showed her  my work, and she said:" God bless your hand  my dear daughter!!", ( I'm not only good in my study, hahaha .. I'm kidding , guys!)oh you have no idea how much I was happy when I heard her saying that!!! I was waiting her say that actually :D ; cuz there is nothing is more important than your mother satisfaction to your job.. it's like the world is praising your work , hahaha.. God bless my mom.. and yours ,too.:):):) .

 

My grandma is so sick right now , I wish that she will be Ok soon… I really get too sad when I see someone old is suffering from his disease and pains . he was working hard all his life; and when it's time to get some rest .. they have diseases and have to suffer from pains .. it's so much pity , isn't it? .. God , please guide me to help everyone in need !!!

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I have too many problems with people  when they try to understand me, I'm a simple girl ( nobody wants to believe that though).. I love life and want to make it a special , for me and for everybody around me :) :)…

I was in a wedding party that Wednesday.. I had too much fun .. can you imagine ?? the bride is 18 years old just like me , hahaha.. In fact we were in the same primary school, I wish her happiness ( and I wish happiness to the groom too).. please don't get upset with me :D:D…

Finally ,

كل عام وانتم بألف بألف بألف خييييييييييييييييييييير والله ايعيدو عليكم بالخير و السلامي...

That was a greeting for Eid from me in Meslawi… hehe

Take care all of you .. and try to forget every bad thing .. and forgive anybody who has hurt you ..in the end.. Islam wants us to do that , right?

Your friend,

Ms. Flu ... no i'm kidding..

Ms.Violet :D