Despair ! no no

What I'm seeing  in  the hospital is crushing  of feelings ,i wonder if i can get over it or NOT .. If i can  continue having hope or the disaster of despair is coming to reach me as well  !  I still remember that  woman moaning for his dead father whose soul's just left earth   , and that scream of  old women shouting of ketoacidosis !

I still remember that little girl looking at me , I can't  explain what was her look for .. but every time I recall it I become one step to cry !

I remember those astray  looks , those desperate feelings .. those tears !

Yesterday there was a bomb at nabi- Younis ( a neighborhood and an old souq in Mosul , site of the famous Jame3 (nabi younis ) ... 7 humans have been killed  !

I don't care who they are , what is  their religion and and nationality ! all I care about they are human beings and blood has been shed ! … woman has been widowed child has been orphan and a man has been killed !!

Next week – Tuesday is my final clinical exam in medicine , please pray for me to have a brilliant result !

what makes you cherish your life?(updated)

what makes you cherish your life ??!! Is it your waking up by an explosion? Or your one step  away from death by ALSO an explosion??!!

The floor- as I remember flew from its place … the windows went outside their sites  and then returned again!!! I don't know how the hell that happened???

The people were walking and just didn't know what they were doing actually!! They tried to call their dear people but the damn mobile network was off at that time !! ..

Let's return to my first question, "what makes you cherish your life??"

Is it seeing people burning because of that so-called explosion and the doctors in the ER were just trying to turn off their dead burned bodies !!!!!!!!

Is it seeing the American soldiers at the site of explosion( before it ) and then when it happened  , they had  simply disappeared !!!as nothing has happend!!

Alright .. alright !! when you see and hear  such explosion you'll certainly learn how to cherish your life!

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other Q ,

is it seeing the american soliders exploding a door of a house at 7:00 am saying " fire in the hole", and then the iraqi soliders entered the house and the FIRST ones just waited outside!!- i don't know if the iraqis were their human shield!- after the door was off its site the childern went out the house crying and not knowing what the damn is happening!! , i can hear their voices now in my ears!!!

you know what? ... you must cherich your life every single moment  just because you don't live in Iraq.. and thank your God thousand of times that you have a soul and that soul is still in your body !!!

 

Violet Is Sad

It was really bad day today!!! We had 3 exams !!! OMG. I was studying too hard last night even since Friday .. I was sure that I'll do fine with them but soon it was proven contrarily.. You have no idea how I feel depressed now .. even in one of them I was asked to do the refractive index experiment .. can you believe I forgot how to do it !!! after having a sufficient shock in the first exam I forgot even what time is was or where I have been !!! indeed very bad !!!!

Even with the computers' exam; I didn't know what had happened to me !!! this is the  last thing I care about..  coz I really    love computers .. anyway the college today was empty .. just the workers and us !!! and it was really dull  .. I stopped thinking for a second and I started to find 

a way to put an end to this mess , but soon I realized that there is no solution .. time is passing and it doesn't wait anybody… no matter who is he.. after returning home .. I started crying..  I really felt helpless .. my family tried to encourage me … all of them actually .. but my father said " my daughter, dear.. please forget what has happened and let what occurred today behind your back.. this is not the end of life!!, with your achievements  .. you must say that to people and not to been said!!.. to forget every bad thing, and start from the beginning no matter how bad the past was … " anyway I felt a little relieved after hearing that and tiny spots of hope returned again to my uneasy face ..

Sorry guys this post caused a big depression to you .. but if I can't say what I feel on my blog .. where the sky can I say it ..

BTW, a big explosion has just happened .. It shocked me !!! indeed it's unbearable day !! right?

  

It has been Normal ; but…..

Some day I was awakened by a large explosion …in normal case I would be still awake and wouldn't sleep, but here it has been a routine … I just continued my sleep as nothing had happened …why our souls -in fact -the humans souls have been very cheap ???when I continued my sleep I thought of myself that I don't have any human sense ..but I forgot how much myself is care about humanity and that everybody has right to live ,him like everyone on every place on Earth
Many people are dying nowadays and nobody cares about them…in fact they are dying because of wars..and even hunger .in this century it must there is no hunger..with this civilization and development it must there is no wars …the technology must provide us with enough food …at this time we must love each other and live peacefully … it must we don't look on our religion or thoughts we must consider ourselves humans and stop killing each other ..treat ourselves humans just for a single moment …
You may mention that I repeat the words (Earth, peace and humans )very much in this post and in other posts..coz these three are connected .the humans must live on earth in peace ..